I set out for a long run of 7 miles yesterday at my trail, Breakwater. The plan was to run 3/1 intervals, but after the first mile, my knee couldn’t take it. I was feeling heavy and out of breath. It finally hit me that I’ve absolutely dreaded running for the last few weeks. I no longer enjoy it, and the pain I feel afterwards is not worth it. After that first mile, I stopped my Garmin and headed back to the car. After a few minutes, I received a text from Jeff. It was a cute picture of him. He’s a constant source of inspiration for me without even knowing it.
I turned the Garmin back on and continued to walk the rest of the way. I walked a total of 5.5 miles… not quite the 7 miles I was hoping for but my decision to not lather up in Body Glide came to haunt me and my inner thighs. Instead of hating every minute of my time outdoors, I enjoyed the walk. However, by the time I got home, I was in tears. I’ve fallen out of love with running. My six-year-long dream of running the Walt Disney World Marathon was quickly being flushed down the drain. I’d never again be able to call myself a “runner”, and I started to feel like I’ll never again feel the intense joy of finishing a long run or race. This would never happen again…
(Me finishing the NYC Half Marathon with a smile on my face)
And I’d never look like this again…
(I’ve gained 19 pounds since this picture was taken)
I knew if I tweeted about my meltdown, I would certainly find someone else going through the same thing. Thankfully, Sana came to my rescue. She’s going through an injury as well and feeling quite bitter about it. We g-chatted, and she gave me so much to think about. She learned while travelling in Europe that they stay fit over there by starting and ending their days with a walk. She encouraged me to try new things while I give myself time to heal and learn to love running again. My brother also told me “no one can be that motivated all the time” referring to me wanting to train for something all the time. I need a break from running.
Therefore, I’ll be starting my days with a walk and ending my days with a (stationary) bike ride, swim, or yoga session. There will certainly be rest days, but I’m not scheduling them on specific days. I’ll take them when I need them.
Armed with a new sense of confidence about my new workout routine, I woke up before the alarm went off this morning at 6am. Normally, if I had been planning on a run, I would have hit snooze and bailed on the run altogether. But today, knowing all I had to do was walk, I woke up feeling motivated. I got out the door before the sun had come up and walked 3.4 miles around my neighborhood. It felt great!
Tonight, I rocked out 8.7 miles in 30 minutes on the stationary bike. I also ran in to the personal trainer at the Y, Daniel, who is competing in Disney’s Goofy Challenge. I go to him for a lot of my questions. I told him about my break from running, and he gave me the encouragement I needed to not completely give up on the WDW Marathon. He advised I lay off running until late October and kick it in to gear for 2 months (if I feel like running again).
I finally feel revitalized and ready to start something new!
If you’ve taken a break from running, what did you do instead?